nickels and dimes until payday (thursday) coinciding with the anticipation for my t shot (tomorrow) and i’m stressed and not sleepin good. feelin like my life has been put on hold. tryin to make a meal of pistachios. my fav food bank closed and i just kinda want to be temporarily not living until this all passes but i won’t do that ok not a lot anyways i need to stay present at least it’s nice out and stuff.
i’m in solidarity with short people on tippy toes at the back of the room at crowded shows.
i get my prescription for t in two hours and that’s all i can think about right now
even though i need to find some waay to get my computer fixed without paying for it slash find a way to get photoshop and then go to werk
also, i have some weird throat cough that is making me sound like a dinosaur. i think that’s called cognitive dissonance?
Ghostpoet - Survive It
they are one of my favourite hiphop artists because they are the chillest.
i get my T prescription on monday if all goes smoothly
I read a good article today that made me rethink some things.
"There is the idea in the US that liberation should be sought through legal change. It is especially grounded in a white supremacist national story about how Black people were liberated from slavery by legal reform and how racism is now over.
Law reform demands often shift movements away from constituents’ needs for housing, health care, and relief from state violence, and toward demands for symbolic inclusion in the most violent institutions of governance (police, military, family).
Trans resistance needs a legal strategy, but not one focused on passing legislation … trans politics must contend with these systems, since they violently enforce racialized gender norms.”
- Dean Spade
I feel like this is an accurate summary of a lot of my friendships.
personal tw endochronolomology blues
i just got blood work done for the endo. i guess this means i’m a lot closer to going back on a low dose of hrt. but it’s been such a rollercoaster that i’m not going to expect anything anymore. i thought it was going to be a much longer wait i found out the drop-in doctor at the sexual health centre could do it and whined about my t letter expiring then she said she would write my script once i got blood work. i was not expecting that since the other doctor said it would be about 6 months wait to see the endo. if i seem more antsy impatient and inattentive human-like substance lately, this is why. mostly i’m just always like that but particularly until i hear back about this i will be an once i get on it i will be much happier and calmer i’m pretty sure and feeling a lot more in control of my bodily encasement that i hope to soon call home.
hi i’m nix
my leg hairs are getting so long especially around my ankles but whenever i take a picture the hairs don’t show up in it so you’ll just have to trust me. also i offended someone with my armpit hairs woohoo